Tonight is my "shivered bones".

I wanted to talk about the surprise birthday party Darth had planned for me but all my photos were deleted from my phone (by Darth himself) so I think I will pass. Yes, the surprise birthday party which was held at the beach bungalow chalet he'd rented. The one he'd made my whole family kept quiet about so I won't find out. He'd plan a barbeque with loads of good food and... smores. Yes, he had even prepared ingredients to make smores, which I've been wanting to try out for the longest time. His mum had also bake me a Black Forest cake, with fresh raspberries. My own sister, yes my very own sister had lied to me about going for a broadwalk by the beach only to be blindfolded halfway by my sisters and cousins and brought to a place decorated with balloons. The same surprise birthday party, which had left me in shock and sitting by the stairs staring at the dim lighted barbeque place with my family laughing and grinning around me because such a thing has never happen to me in my 26 years of life. I'll skip all that.

Instead below are the only two photos I have in my "new" phone. Today, was a good day spent. Tomorrow is the start of a new career for Darth, my aircraft engineer. Honestly, I am sad and envious but mostly happy for him. Sad because I won't be seeing him at work anymore. Envious because it's obviously a cool job. I used to think my dad had the coolest job as a refinery technician but now Darth's tops it. Envious also because he got a job he wants. While I feel more and more small (because like somebody told me, it's hard to have a future in art, which is somewhat true especially for a person like me who doesn't try very hard. Darth, I hope you're ok with marrying just an officer). Happy because he's happy, and I know he is doing this for our future, inshallah.

Anyway, Darth, if you ever find it a challenge with your new job and if you feel at loss, "Say: If I am astray, I only stray to the loss of my own soul, but if I receive guidance, it is because of the inspiration of my Lord to me, it is He who hears all things, and is (ever) near." (Surah Saba 34:50) All the best and may God be with you. Please don't smoke too much, I'm happy if you're able to maintain 5-7 sticks per day.

Urgh, work tomorrow.

Good night.