This night when everyone's asleep but me.

It's 1113pm. I am waiting for a phone message that I doubt will come. Darth is probably asleep, I don't know why I have expectations. I just took off my whitening face mask. If I think about it, it is pretty strange that I'd like to whiten my face because it is meaningless and unnecessary. The skin on my face feels tight and my left eye-lid is slightly swollen from my old contact lens, it hurts a little. I didn't go to work today. I woke up and decided I didn't want to go to work today. Instead I stayed at home to wash the dishes, clean the kitchen counters, throw away stuff, do the laundry, fold clothes, vacuum the house, read a book, embroider, listen to music, surf the internet, stare at walls and ceilings, take naps, do nothing. Sigh, I have no idea what I am doing with my life.

 God forgive me.